Part five: Acceptance… The icing on the cake. That final layer to keep it all REAL.
Recap:
– Shit was unbearably fucked up
– Causes: The unwitting assimilation of Nihilistic Belief Patterns
– Got to a breaking point
– Soul took the wheel
– Examining CONTROL
– What the fuck do I do now?
– Couldn’t go with belief any longer, sheer Will now
– Going to The Ancestors
– The Message
– Realizing it starts with the thoughts that inform the beliefs
– What change REALLY means
– Desire to order my life
– Benefits: re-allocation of energy
– A tool
– What do I need the tool to do? My needs and priorities
– Care and reverence of Self/Purpose through Self-Discipline
I had to accept that where I was in my life was of because of my own doing. Whether through not trusting my own instincts, conscious choices, naivete or denial, it was still my doing.
But there IS power in that. This means getting out this mess can also be of my own doing. If I could get myself into this, I could get myself out.
I was also aware this applied to both the good and the bad beliefs.
My beliefs acquired through my trying to understand what was happening in the world is what brought me here.
All the wrong beliefs about what I could do about it are also what brought me here.
A good intention-turned-belief manipulated, used and applied in a bad way.
Applicable quote:
“You don’t throw out the baby with the bathwater, do you?”
I was not going to give up on the idea that our society could be better. It was just that now I had realized that I COULD do something about it! This was the flip.
And I would now put those ‘good’ beliefs into action in my daily life through steps 2, 3 and 4.
I mapped out goals that made sense to me, because they were based on the beliefs that remained after a successful weeding out of the crap ones.
My beliefs are now clear. I am retraining my thoughts from those beliefs. I am approaching Self-Care through those beliefs. I am ordering My Life through those beliefs.
I have vowed to stay fluid while maintaining consistency in my actions about these beliefs.
And being that my beliefs are directly tied to my experiences, I no longer have to run or hide from them. I will no longer throw out the uncomfortable/unacceptable ones, but will make room for new ones that may possibly add to, adjust or validate the old ones.
I now hold my experiences like Sacred Books within my Soul that guide me along the way. They hold my warning flags and road signs. They guide me away from harm and towards Real Life and Real Peace. I move forward into the world with these valuable books/tools as Me.
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I hope this may help someone who this scenario fits.
At the least, I hope it will give ideas that order, structure and discipline do not have to be at odds with freedom, peace and joy.
They are merely tools to be used and NOT to use you.
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I thank The Divine and The Ancestors for all that you have done for me.
